"I'VE CHANGED"

Over the past few months and even more so over the past few weeks it has been extremely apparent to myself (and I'm sure others) that I've changed. When I say "I've changed" I don't only mean physically, but mentally. There has been a shift with what I consider fun, what I consider important and what I consider invaluable regarding friendships and personal relationships.

One of the biggest steps I took to get myself here was to finally make MYSELF the priority. I was always the "yes girl" down for anything, anytime. I would squeeze in this and that with him or her just to be apart of the next social scene. Don't get me wrong this life had its perks - I never waited in line or paid for anything, went to a number of free events from concerts with backstage passes, to playoff games with VIP status, to private parties with celebrity guests. But where does it all get you? NO WHERE. You wake up hungover, slack off at your job, skip the gym, order comfort food and then do it all over again. And for what? To turn 28 in a job you hate with cellulite and a hangover. NO THANK YOU.

*just to be clear I was never a paid to party girl or did this with anyone other than my friends. People literally just gave us free stuff and we had great connections.*

Change doesn't come easy. Cue the complaints from the people you used to go out with, the boredom while you figure out your next move, and (the hardest part) the FOMO from all of the fun stuff you were so accustomed to.

The silver lining? 

  • Internal happiness
  • Self Love
  • Sobriety
  • Focus
  • Accomplishments 
  • Value
  • Deeper Connections
  • More Time
  • New Experiences

... and the list goes on.

"Life on the other side", as I like to call it, is so much more rewarding. All the missing pieces fall into place and you actually start to feel like a real human being. I look back on the life I used to live with no regrets, but I also don't miss it at all. I am so much happier staying in or having dinner with my girlfriends who are married and new moms than I did with my "friends" at a bar or after party.

All in all, I consider it a compliment when someone tells me "I've Changed"