Life can be tricky. One day you think you’ve got it all figured out. The job, the dog, the boyfriend, the house… You feel like you’re on track with the rest of society and the rest of your friends and family… But are you on track for YOU? What do YOU really want? How do YOU really feel? Those are just a few questions, that for far too long, I lied to myself about…

Last year was an incredible growth year for me with respect to my career, my personal fitness goals, and my overall outlook on life. It made me realize that I was no longer being true to myself and what I feel with respect to my wants and needs in my relationship. It is a difficult reality to face, but the more I grew, the further I grew apart from the person I was sharing my life with.

Change has been a constant in my life this past year and, as you can probably tell, it’s not letting up any time soon. I have taken yet another leap and ended a relationship, that at one point, I thought was my forever.

As I perform the autopsy on everything that transpired, it becomes crystal clear that we just no longer fit and we were not making one another happy. You cannot force anything in life, and it feels like for that past few months, that’s exactly what we were trying to do.

It is difficult to put this out there and I apologize for any vagueness as I want to be respectful of both parties involved, but ultimately, I wanted to share this with you for two reasons:

Reason One: Not everything you see online and on Instagram is what it appears to be. You never know what someone is going through or what is happening in their life. You cannot and should not compare your life to anyone’s who you follow. Don’t ever feel lesser than, or envious of anyone because their life may look incredible online. Most people only share the best moments, not all the moments.

Reason Two: I know I am not alone in this. I am not the first person to go through this, and I won’t be the last. It would be dishonest to only share the positive sides of my life with you as I made a commitment to talk about and express my life online in the hopes to inspire and help anyone that may read it. This remains true through the good and the bad. So, on that note, as much as life can feel like it’s in shambles, it feels exciting, fresh, and purposeful. I have reset the bar to a level I know will be met by an incredible person when the timing is right.  

All in all, I know I am better off. This is just the beginning for me. This is the first time in life I am completely free. I no longer have the responsibilities of a pet (although I would give anything in the world to have him back), a 9-5 job structure, or anyone to think about other than myself and my goals. I have the most amazing family and friends and more focus than ever before. I believe in manifesting the things you want and that the world brings you in what you need when you need it. It happened to me last year and it will happen for me again. For anyone reading this who may be facing the challenges of change, stay focused. stay strong, and trust the timing of your life.